doubt it not

But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,

thou shalt not eat of it:

for in the day that thou eatest thereof

thou shalt surely die.

Genesis 2:17

this is me.

i never thought of this way it could be. if i know that these things would ended like this, i would never ever decided to get involved. yes, maybe it's noble enough to taste these things, but believe me, i'm in a dead phase now, like the script was written, 'the day thou eatest thereof, thou shalt surely die'.

the problem is, i think i'm irrevocably in 'liking' phase with someone, really. it's ridiculous. i never felt this thing before. i tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what i just felt, a solution that excluded the assumption that i was insane.

maybe i just need to drifted away, feel my arms closed. and, dspite all the horror and hopelessness, i was fleetingly happy. and i finally, i doubt it not, that i'm really into these things.